Everything You Want To Know About Kopral Geddoe But Too Afraid To Ask Sora9nDecember 20, 2008 at 1:55 am | Posted in refleksi, sekedar | 21 Comments
Tags: Bali, Blogging, Blogspot, Procrastination, Wordpress
Refleksi Setahun di Worpress
In the beginning was boredom
Bali. 2007. I was utterly bored. Been there, done that. Well, not really, I can’t swim soale. 😕 I had grown tired of even telling my jealous friends that even the island of the Gods — with all its natural, mystical, sexual and heavenly ambiences — could make you bored to hell. And I mean it; at the time, I really wanted to go back to the city I love and loathe: Jakarta. Thank God, there was Internet. I spent hours before my laptop at my tiny office, chatting via YM with my coworker — who sat next to me! — or illegally downloading the old songs that I loved so much when I was a teenager. My Jakarta friend yelled at me: “You’re in Bali and what you’re doing is staying at office all day!!?” It was pathetic, I know. But the truth is it was not Bali’s monotonous life that made me glued to my LCD screen. It was WordPress!
The acute procrastinator had just found his playground.
I was surprised and amazed by the exuberance of Indonesian blogosphere. For such a long time, I felt alone in the Internet. I never knew that some personal blogs — where you write about how this rootless life is tormenting you — could become a locus for a lively discussion. As I was then, and still am, infatuated by God talks, I frequented Wedulgembes’ blog; there I met M. Sejuki, a typical Muslim apologist, who said I was like a Jew for rejecting “the Truth I have known” and I was “an agent of JIL”. I encountered some Christian bigots as well, and learned that they were as ignorant as the aforementioned Muslim apologist of their own religion’s history. I was critical to the Trinity as I was then infatuated with Christology and wanted to know more about how the lay Christians comprehend the unthinkable concept. There I got a friend too: Mas Aku-Bahagia, an open-minded Muslim who turned out to be much, much older than me. And I also met a Biblically well-versed Catholic with a funny nickname Sukro, who introduced me to resourceful forum Sarapan Pagi. I forgot how I got there, but suddenly I was in Secondprince’s blog, discussing the infallibility of Ali’s offspring. Again, I was truly amazed. WordPress is surely a lot more dynamic than blogspot!
My Second Blog
I decided to join WordPress and came out with Rumah Gentole. My original aim was simple: to encounter the existing bigoted sites attacking religions, be they owned by Muslims, Christians or some charlatans. At the time, I was also somehow perturbed by the growing number of agnostics and atheists. I don’t remember how many times I heard people I know proclaiming themselves “agnostics” and telling me that I was just kurang-kerjaan and wasting my time with religion and theology. How could you say you’re an agnostic if you’re too lazy to study theology!? So I posted short writings criticizing agnosticism and atheism. Not many people visited my blog. Well, you need not to tell me, I’m neither great thinker nor talented writer. But I was really expecting a discussion. So I thought I just needed to mess around at someone’s blog. Hahaha… 😈 There I, almost irresponsibly, stormed Sora9n’s now-probably-abandoned “theistic agnosticism” in one of his legendary posts: “Proud of Being an Agnostic?”. Mbak Snowie was there, and so was Kopral Geddoe.
Anonymity and Virtual Identity
I was amazed [I think I have overused this word] at the clarity of Sora9n’s writing, and astounded by Geddoe’s eloquent arguments. Who are these people? This is blogosphere. People are what they post and comment out. Till now, I don’t know who Sora9n is, or what he is like; he could be one of the late Soeharto’s grandchildren! Or he might be a relative of mine. Or an old friend. Well, he could be anybody. But I don’t really care; for what matters is what he writes incites my interest. And who is this Kopral Geddoe? I was like “what the f***!” when I learned that he was still a teenager. I thought he was a 30-something PhD candidate with an unlimited internet access blogging from a dark university basement. But again, this is blogosphere. It does not really matter how old you are; for, again, you are what you posted and commented out. You are a bodiless mind; just like what the polymath Ibnu Sina once imagined long before Descartes came up with the idea cogito ergo sum.
I don’t facebook. I am not interested in knowing that somebody is somebody’s or nobody’s friend, or that somebody is now studying abroad, or that somebody is now sitting on a high-paying position in a prestigious company, or that somebody is a lucky bastard marrying a lovely, angelic girl. Anti-social? Probably. But I would be hypocritical to say that I am never intrigued about the “real person” behind the avatars of bloggers I have come to know quite well. I am intrigued, sometimes, but I always think that knowing too much of the offline identity of a blogger will spoil the excitement of reading his anonymous writings. You know, there is something really cool sexy about writing anonymously. Tan Malaka did it, Kiekerkegaard did it. That’s why I think Kopdaran is not really a good idea, though I know it would not be hard for anybody to know my real name and where I work. Mas Sitijenang is my neighbor! We perhaps have lunch at the same Warung Padang without knowing each other! Gimana nih Mas Jenang, perlu diselesaikan tidak?
Well, anyhow, I am glad that although I am very much tempted to turn this blog into my second diary where I posted my personal rants on my life, especially at work, Catatan Gentole is, I hope, still listed in Danalingga’s “Perjalanan Spirtual Teman-teman” — a simple site where people can read some articles on religious issues seen from an unbigoted perspective. Yes, this blog is far from being consistent; I know that sometimes I posted something just to say “Hello World!” It’s just that, you know, I now feel like being part of this WordPress community and things could be a little bit, or very personal. Speaking of getting personal, what’s the title all about? Hehe, I don’t know. I just think it sounds cool for a post title. Or maybe I am just a big fan of the two. 😀
PS: I once told Esensi that I wanted to delete this blog. Maybe I will. Later.